Chapter 31
Isabella Marie
The kiss was upside down.
My feelings were upside down.
My thoughts were upside down.
My whole world was no better – it had turned upside down.
One wave after another of bright feelings and soft emotions ran through my body as we kissed. My
mind was warming and my heart was heating up; something was changing, lots of
things. And I found that I wasn't that scared anymore, I wasn't that unsure
anymore. Yes, I was still a bit confused, and I was still very unsettled about
my feelings towards him, but – it felt good. Like, a wonderfully amazing kind
of good.
And I wanted more. I wanted it to never
end.
The prince's hands covered my own over his
neck, just the slightest movement of his thumbs over them encouraged me to
deepen our kiss. It grew even hotter, more needing, more searing. It was
perfect. Just like any other kiss we’d shared, but this one – this one had a different
meaning, to me at least. I knew that my statement this morning about the kiss I’d
given him before I left and how real it was made him aware of the fact that I’d
started to have feelings for him, but – kissing him this way would tell him
more, I knew it would.
A part of me was hoping it would tell him
that this time I was truly okay with going along with our plan, and I would
stay those six months here without us having to talk about it, because lots of
things inside of me were unsure and confused. I feared that if we started
talking about it – I'd say I wanted to go, because it was the thing my mind
wanted the most.
My head started to spin, and I got dizzy
just being lost in the sea that was kissing the prince, tasting him and feeling
his passion, so I pulled away, panting, my vision hazy and my legs more like
jelly than flesh and bones.
His eyes opened again and they caught mine.
I watched as his tongue darted out to lick his lips, then he sucked his bottom
lip into his mouth for a second as if he was gathering all of my taste on his
lips.
My knees almost gave out at the sight and the
thought.
Moments of silence passed and our eyes
stayed locked on each other’s, my hand still touching him, and his hand still
covering mine, until finally – he spoke. "What is it you're doing to me,
Beautiful Princess?" hushed whispers was his quite voice, tender
gentleness was his soft tone.
I didn't reply; I only stared even deeper
into his eyes for a few more moments before I straightened up and then walked around
to stand in front of him, moving his hand that was now on his lap to rest it on
the arm of his seat, then doing the same with his other, my eyes never leaving
his wondering ones. And then – I placed myself where his hands were. I sat on
his lap, and even made myself comfortable.
I wasn't very surprised when he didn't react
right away. He was shocked by my actions, but he recovered quickly and I felt
his arms surrounding my body, holding me to him, pretty much hugging me. I
rested my head on his chest, closed my eyes tightly shut, drowning in an ocean
of kindness, safety and security.
I then looked up at his eyes and finally
told him what I wanted him to know, what I truly felt. "Your closeness
comforts me," I admitted.
His smile was soft, kind, and despite his
heartbeats that I could hear racing under my ear, he whispered, "And yours
does the same to me," causing even more calmness to wash over me.
I nestled my head even more into his chest,
my arm wrapped around his neck, my nose inhaling his scent, all sandalwood and
wonderfulness and him. My eyes closed as I enjoyed all of the good feelings his
closeness offered.
We stayed like that for a while, his hand
playing with my hair softly. Every now and then his lips would touch my
forehead gently to place a warm kiss that caused my heart to flutter and my
stomach to do a little flip.
It still amazed me how he could be so
forgiving towards me. I had hurt him a lot and caused him troubles, with both
my words and actions, yet – he was always so understanding and accepting, even
when I didn't apologize or explain. He was something else.
"Do you –" I tried to ask, but I
dreaded the answer, so I stopped.
"Do I what, Princess?" he asked
in a quiet voice, his hand that was playing with my hair now moving to rub
along my arm tenderly.
"Do you regret teaching me about the
secret tunnels?" I asked.
"Not for a second, never," was
his instant reply. "Why would you think I would?"
"I lied to you, for example?"
The prince sighed. "Listen, Princess, your
safety is too important to me. I'd do anything in my power to keep you safe and
sound. I'd even go beyond that if I could as long as you are protected, and if
– God forbid – something happened here and you weren’t able to escape just
because you didn't know how, I'd never forgive myself," he said sincerely,
and I smiled a small smile.
"Why was my life in danger then?"
I asked. "I thought that it was because you’d taught me about those escape
routes. Or is it that I'm not allowed to leave the palace without permission?
Was that breaking the law or a rule?"
"No, Princess, it's not like
that," he started. "Just think about it, you've only been here a few
days, you're a bride, you just came into our lives, living in the palace, and
then you escaped that way. Of course the first thought that would come to my
parents’ and anyone's mind is that you were an intruder who’d learned something
important and then fled to use it for whatever.
Anyone would think of you as a
spy or something of that sort – this is why your life was in danger."
"Oh, my God!" I gushed. "I
never thought of it that way."
"It's okay, it turned out okay, thank
God!"
"But – how could you not regret
it?" I wondered. "I did know about things that were really important
and then tried to escape. Only you know that truth – how could you not think
that I was truly a spy and even cover up for me?" It was beyond my
understanding how he could not.
"I know you are not, Princess,"
he said. "Do you think we'd allow Jaser into the family without looking
very well into his background – and his parents', even?" Oh!
"And, I actually told you enough to keep you safe, but only that.
You don't know of the paths to my father's wing, you don't know how to enter
the palace from the outside. The system is very complicated, you can only get
in with the code you got out with, and if you weren't in this wing and used its
doors, then you can't get in from outside. And the codes always change
depending on the number of doors you used to go out and which ones."
Holy Mother of Christ!
"That's –…" I couldn't find the
word.
"Complicated." He smiled.
"Understandable," I said, my mind
in a fog just trying to process everything he’d said. And I failed miserably.
A quiet silence and calm quietness fell
upon us. Time passed while I stayed in his arms, liking his touch, loving his
tender kisses on my forehead and adoring the sound of his heartbeat under my
ear. I kept my eyes closed and I almost fell asleep, but the prince said he had
to get up to pray. I almost told him not to, but I knew I couldn't say that, so
I got up, and then he did as well. Before he left the living room, he placed
yet another kiss on my forehead, making the argument I had in me to tell him to
stay rise, but still I fought it and let him go without saying anything, knowing
he'd be back in a few minutes anyway.
~BK~
We talked a lot that night. As a matter of
fact, we barely stopped talking at all. I learned a lot about him, and he
learned a lot about me.
He still had two years of specializing to
do, but wasn't so sure if he could do it. He told me he’d had to go through a
lot to convince his mother to agree to let him leave the country to study
aboard. She disliked the idea of him being so far from the Kingdom and leaving
most of his responsibilities towards his country for his brother to do. She
disliked the fact that he was studying something that wouldn't serve his
position of being the future King anyhow, but he said that helping people was
something he had always wanted to do, not just ruling and guiding – even if it
was what he had been raised to do all of his life.
I told him that he should consider being a
psychologist; he always knew the right thing to say, always knew how to comfort
and solve – it was just the right thing for him, in my opinion. Heck, he was
able to send calmness over my heart faster and even better than what my
therapist had for all of those years. It made him smile big, then he spaced
out, as if he was really considering it, or at least thinking of the
possibilities, because it seemed like his duty towards his Kingdom was
preventing him from doing anything further than that, like he’d told me.
I told him about the company, about my
parents, about my life in New York. It was kind of embarrassing how very boring
my life was; it was only work and more work. And before I had to take care of
the company, it was studying and more studying. I had no time for friends, and my
family was only my grandmother and my parents, but after the loss of my parents
– I didn't even have a grandmother anymore. Well, not that much.
Still, the prince seemed really fascinated by
everything I was saying. He hung on my every word, told me how he was impressed
by my accomplishments and all I’d done for the past year. He liked that we were
still able to complete the project my parents had started of having a branch in
the kingdom, and that we still kept the branches in London and Paris working
like before and even better, making me feeling less bad about my non-existent
social life.
He was that nice. And like always,
he knew the right thing to say.
Our talk was easy, sweet, and I liked it a
lot. But it also made me feel sorry for the past several days I’d spent feeling
too much fear to actually enjoy them. But – I don't think I could've ever
helped it. Everything was new to me. I was forced to marry a stranger and my
brother put a gun to my head … it was difficult. It was still difficult, but
easier. A lot easier. I was actually enjoying my time.
Later when Mona brought us food, it looked
great and delicious like always, but …
"I miss pancakes," I said. We
were just about to eat, none of us had started eating yet.
"Oh!" the prince said, "I
don't know if my mother knows how to make them or not, but I could have Mona
ask her to make you some. She'll figure it out."
"No, no, it's okay," I smiled,
but then thought for a moment. "Uh, can I make some?"
"Pancakes?"
I nodded.
"Yourself?"
I nodded again, smiling widely.
"Now?"
I had to chuckle. "Yeah, I really want
some."
"Isn't it an American breakfast?"
"Um … it's morning in America," I
grinned.
The prince chuckled and it was music to my
ears, shaking his head. "I don't know, Princess."
"Is it breaking a rule? Because I
assure you – I've been 'spoiled rotten' enough since I got here," I
tried.
"I don't mind at all, Princess, but
you have to convince Mona. She won't be happy with you getting your hands dirty
during your first week of marriage, no matter what," the prince grinned.
"I know how to be convincing," I
said with a smug on my face, making the prince chuckle again, and then we went
to the kitchen, readying myself for a big argument with Mona.
.
.
.
"It is not appropriate,
Princess," Mona said with wide eyes and shock as if I just told her I'd be
torturing puppies, not making pancakes.
"Oh, please! It'll only take ten
minutes," I said.
"You tell me how to do it, Princess,
and I'll do it with pleasure," Mona offered.
"Five minutes," I tried,
desperate.
"I promise I'll try my best, Princess,
just tell me how to." Mona was just as desperate.
I looked over at the prince who was leaning
his shoulder on the door frame, hands in his pockets, watching us as he tried
to stifle his laughter. "Aren't you gonna help me out here?"
He raised his hands in front of him in
surrender. "It's your war, Stubborn Princess."
I narrowed my eyes at him playfully, and he
chuckled, and then I had to beg Mona some more. I almost thought of bribing her
with more hair brushing or something, but thought it'd be silly of me.
Eventually, Mona gave up and let me do it,
but all the while she kept asking if she could do this or that herself. I let
her help a little only to put her mind at any kind of rest, and she was really
happy with it.
To my surprise, the prince wanted to help,
as well. Mona didn't object at all, which I told her was so lame of her. She
just smiled and then even laughed at how clumsy he was. He had the cutest
smudge of flour on his nose, and both Mona and I snickered at the sight of him.
"What?" he asked, completely
unaware of the reason why we were grinning so big.
"You have flour on your nose," I
giggled.
He quickly rubbed it off, but only managed
to put more flour all over his nose and cheeks. It was seriously the most
adorable thing I'd ever seen; he was a know-nothing when it came to cooking or rubbing
off flour.
"All gone?" he asked.
"Perfect," I gave him a thumb up,
and Mona turned her back to him so she could hide her laughter.
"It's all over my face, huh?"
I nodded, bursting out laughing at his
reaction, and completely loving how easy spending a day in the Kingdom had become,
wishing I'd learned I could smile and laugh earlier than that. It would've
saved me so much heartache.
.
.
.
Mona was really touched when I made her a
plate. It made me smile to see how little things meant so much to her, and I
kept it in mind to do more nice things for her later; she was such a sweet
person.
What I enjoyed the most was the prince's
humming as he ate the pancakes I’d made. I smiled with pride as he kept going
on and on about how delicious they tasted, telling me that the ones he’d eaten
in the UK weren't at all the same, stroking my ego just the right way. And I
loved it.
We were sitting on the couch in our bedroom.
I fed him a tiny slice of strawberry and smiled when he gave me a piece of his
pancakes with his fork, trying to convince me it was the best in the whole
world, as if it wasn't the same thing I had on my plate.
It was all so good and sweet, until I saw a
drop of syrup over his chin. Then it turned even better.
"You have syrup there," I told
him, pointing to my chin, the same place he had the syrup, but just like with
the flour, he completely missed it.
I had to do it myself. With my lips.
Because the idea sounded so good in my head. I just had no idea that the
prince's reaction to that would be catching my lips and locking them with his
in a heated kiss that almost made me faint.
His lips were hot against mine, soft and
tender, yet firm and demanding. It was sweet like any other kiss we’d shared,
but this time there was something different. This time it was like he was
hungry, thirsty, but not for food or a drink. For me. He wanted me, and the
thought drove me insane, because I wanted him, too. So much, at that.
His hand wrapped around my throat, his
fingertips at the back of my neck and his thumb just under my chin, his fingers
warm and his lips warmer, his touch gentle and his tongue gentler, his breaths
hot and his kisses even hotter. I was melting.
My hands found his hair and he groaned into
my mouth for the first time when I pulled slightly at the hair on the back of
his head. The second time he groaned was when I straddled his legs and sat on
his lap, this time facing him, my body flush to his, and our lips hugging each
other like long lost lovers.
I felt the heat spreading all over my body,
starting from my cheeks and down to my core. I was vibrating from the inside
out with need, desire and– … and– … something. Something was bursting
inside of me like a wildfire, demanding to be noticed by me, telling me of new
feelings I'd never felt before, and uncontrollable emotions and feelings that I
was too distracted by our kiss to even care to think about.
His hands were all over my back, pulling,
squeezing, stroking, driving me mad with undeniable lust. I wanted him to touch
me more, and everywhere.
His lips pulled away from mine, both of us
panting and flushed, but just as I was about to start missing the feel of those
lips – he started kissing my neck and down to my collarbone, his breaths
fanning over my neck, and over the wet spots his tongue left as he tasted my
skin. It felt so good that all I could do was to throw my head back to give him
better access, moan breathlessly and tug more at his hair, at the same time
holding his head in the place where I liked to feel his tongue the most, behind
my ear.
It was heavenly good.
"Princess," he breathed into my
ear before kissing me right under it at the end of my jawline. "Beautiful,
beautiful Princess." His whispers were as hot as his hands that I wanted
to feel even more of. I wanted to feel him, all of him.
"What should I do to you, My Beautiful
Princess? What should I do to you?"
Kiss me.
Hug me.
Touch me.
Oh, please, touch me.
I could only moan in response. And the next
moment, the prince's hands were over my sides, tightening a bit as he moved me
the slightest bit away from his lap. I was about to protest and demand the same
closeness again, only to have him push me gently over onto my back, bringing
his body to hover on top of me as our lips stayed busy with another burning
kiss.
The feel of his body over mine was
something I couldn't describe. I already knew I’d never felt as safe or as
protected as I felt in his arms, but this way – this way was way beyond
feeling safety and protection. This way felt as if I was cold outside on a
rainy night and finally found shelter.
He was my safety. My comfort. My
protection. And my shelter. My very secure and filled with care shelter.
My hand reached for the ends of his shirt
and I pulled it up and over his head, wanting to touch more of him, and to feel
his bare skin with my hand. He helped me with it and then threw it to the floor
before getting back to his sweet assault over my neck and collarbone.
I enjoyed his groans that he let out every
time I moved my hand over his back, chest and abs. I enjoyed feeling him so
close to me. I enjoyed hearing his whispers, 'Princess, Princess, Princess.'
And I loved it when he panted, 'My Princess.' It made my stomach
flutter, my heart beat faster, and my need for him grow stronger.
"Is this–" he panted, "Is
this okay?" His hand was touching the top of my shoulder where he had
pulled my dress a little to bare it a bit and taste it with his lips and tongue.
This time he was tugging at the dress a little more, asking my permission first
before going any further.
I let my eyes do all the talking before I
finally confirmed it by nodding my head. I earned a passionate kiss from him as
his hand went to the side of my left breast, and I felt him fumbling a little
before I realized that he was pulling down a thin zipper that I didn't even
know was there, releasing it when it reached my side by the end of my ribcage.
His eyes were hungry and lustful as he looked down at my purple lace bra which
was doing so little to hide my erect nipples.
"So beautiful," was all he said before
his lips sucked at the skin at the swell of my breast, causing my eyes to roll
back in my head. And when he pulled down my bra cup and his tongue touched my
nipple, I just couldn't control my moans any longer.
"Oh, God! Yes!" I gasped.
He swirled his tongue around my nipple
before he sucked it into his mouth while his hand fondled my other breast, only
leaving it to do the same to my other nipple, making me moan even louder. My
hands pulled his head more into my chest, arching my back to feel him even more
if that was possible. I brought my left leg up and put it over his back,
because I couldn't help but want to feel his arousal somewhere other than my
thigh and leg. This way, I had him right where I wanted him the most, and once
he felt what I wanted him to feel, he grunted around my nipple and bit on it,
causing me to scream in pleasure and to pull on his hair even more.
His hand found the side of my bare thigh
where my dress had ridden up when I put my leg over his back, and he started
rubbing it softly, stroking my skin and kneading my flesh in his hand while
spreading kisses all over my jawline. My nipples were over-sensitive from his
assault on them and rubbing on his bare chest as he ground his arousal right
over my center.
I was close. So close. And I didn't want
him to stop. Ever.
His hand touched the string of my thong
over my hip, and he was just about to pull it down. He had it in his hand and
everything, he only needed to tug a little and it'd be down my legs, but then
his hand, his lips, his grinding – all just stopped.
He
stopped. Just like that, he froze in his place.
I opened my eyes to look at him, my vision
unclear and my body calling to him, only to feel him getting off of me, saying
a word under his breath that I couldn't understand because, though it was too
quiet, I was sure it wasn't even English.
He sat back on the couch and looked
down at me, his hair wild from my hands and his lips reddish from my own. His
eyes held an expression I’d never seen in them before, or maybe I had. Was that
– guilt?!
I sat up and held my open dress over my
chest, covering myself. We were both still panting and our chests were heaving
with the fast breaths we took.
My eyes questioned his filled with guilt and
shame ones, but he only replied to me by completely leaving the couch after
murmuring, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." That was about all he said
before disappearing into the bathroom.
What the …?
~BK~
What the hell prince
ReplyDeleteOh you little tease!!!!!!!!!! 😍
ReplyDeleteAh that was great. He probably stopped as he was scared she would regret it. Loved it!
ReplyDeleteyou're married...it's ok silly boy
ReplyDeleteReally!! What the hell!! Mazen what is wrong with you? What is going on in his head?? Poor Marie all hot and bothered and i bet even Mazen feels the same. Please Rose u need to continue very fast and update like maybe later or tomorrow please!!!
ReplyDeleteOH NO! What happened to him??? I'm so confused!! :/ :( Poor Marie .. She has to be confused as well and so hurt!
ReplyDeleteGuilt.. Why the guilt????? I want the next chapter Rose! This is the worst type of Cliffie ever!!! Not fair!!
But such an amazing chapter!! I LOVED IT!!! It was SO HOT!!! Thank you so much for sharing such an amazing story with us!!
Love u Rose!!
Xoxo
M
Oh my.what happen to Mazen?
ReplyDeleteExcuse me????? Mazen, Mazen, come back here right this minute, young man! You left Marie and all of us panting! Oh dear me, is it hot in here? *THUD*
ReplyDeleteNot sure why he stopped. They are married, after all. Perhaps he thinks they were moving too fast?
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ReplyDeleteOh my gosh..what happened? I was like smiling right from the start until the part where he stopped...why the guilt and shame? Once again you proved that you're the queen of cliffies! Haha...what a wonderful update rose..just powerful and magical
ReplyDeletephew.hot damn...poor Marie...
ReplyDeleteWow!!!!
ReplyDeletedamn that was hot till he stopped? maybe he remember she is a virgin?
ReplyDeleteThey won't have sex if she plans on leaving in 6 months. Or perhaps it is because he has someone else that has his heart..
ReplyDeleteoh no. why did he stop? what is he thinking? does he think she will regret this? is he thinking of another, one he was supposed to marry? Oh, I hope not. He is married to her and it is only right that they consummate....can't wait to see what happens next, you silly cockblocker!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Alicai and what in the world? Guilt?? For what? It's not like she didn't want him..........at all. She was just fine with what was happening. Although, I have to say it was quite fast for them just getting along after everything that has happened as well as what she has voiced. Let's just hope the next chapter they can 'come' to some sort of agreement, hmmm? thanx (dowlingnana) ;o)
ReplyDeleteAngelik Angel
ReplyDeleteHi
Well, maybe he realized that she did not want to get married. He may be thinking that it could be six months now they talked, but she did not want to stay married to him and live in your country and if it goes ahead, it will take the mark of his innocence, her virginity. Once she lost her virginity without using anything to prevent, she can get pregnant and knows he never let his son leave your country with her and go to her country. Or beyond it all in mind, he may think that she does not want to stay married to him and then may regret this whole involvement.
In fact, it was he who fled now, he should talk about all this with her now, because she may feel rejected, feel that the prince was only even disguising and being kind by the sacrifice she made to marry him to help Alica, but the truth is what the other princess who was engaged to him before he spoke to her, the mother of his children is such a Muslim princess and she was only a part of a plan to help Alica and nothing else. She who is prejudiced with Muslims and blame the death of his grandfather, may again be paranoid.
Very good chapter, thank you. Xo.
I kind get why he backed off... she has been blowing hot and cold the whole time she has been married to him. For him it has be frustrating!! Then she has basically attacked him (which I would have done before now! JS!! LOL)
ReplyDeleteHe is very religious and making not being in a real relationship with. But a fake marriage.... He wants to do things the right way. So she will not have regret's!! Cause he would have to wonder about her! Loved it and looking forward to more :D
Impressive. ;)
Deletewow...what just happened...I'm just as confused as the princess....great chapter...sweet moments...hot ones too...then wtf????did he come and feel guilty...
ReplyDeleteWhat? You cliffie 'B'! I love you ;)
ReplyDeleteBloody hell that was hot!!!
ReplyDeletePoor Prince, she would confuse me too, to be honest..........
ReplyDeleteWow just when it was getting good.
ReplyDeletegreat chapter!!! love that they talked, and got a little closer ;) I'm thinking he walked away because he promised he wouldn't touch her like that, and thinks he may be taking advantage...hope they talk it out...and really hoping she mentions his cousin's comment soon, have been def curious about that!
ReplyDeletecan't wait for the next update, hope it's soon!!
I'm thinking he finished early in his pants, thats why he was guilty and ashammed.
ReplyDeleteWhat was that?! It was all good! I'm sure Bella feels rejected tho I'm sure the Prince will explain later. I hope we won't wait long for the next update :)
ReplyDeleteFor all their codes for "can't get in unless you went out that way" and the rest of it, Jasem had no trouble bursting into the King's own bedroom and taking all the women by surprise, causing them to quickly cover up.
ReplyDeleteHow was he able to do that and no one is even questioning it.
He's family. Used main doors; not secret ones. :)
DeletePsychiatry is the medical specialty so he would be a psychiatrist.
ReplyDeleteA psychologist does not have a medical degree
I hope he explains to her why he stopped. They realy need to talk about their future and Marie needs to be able to compromise amd accept their relationship and to not leave him in 6 months.
ReplyDeleteHe knows she is saving herself for her husband, a husband of her choice so to speak.
ReplyDeleteAll he knows if that this "marriage of convenience" has to end sooner that later and certainly within 6 months so a woman of virtue wouldn't want sexual encounters just to while away her time till she goes home.
I wonder too, how she would react to having a sexual relationship, something she has never done before, then saying goodbye and off home.
Bella also believes at this stage that he intends to marry his cousin after she's gone. The cousin calls him her fiancé.
I don't know if the prince actually knows that.
Great chapter.
xxx
Great chapter
ReplyDeletejabduizgfuidbgudhgdfui im salty at that ending, i hope this doesn't make bella revert back to being shy or scared
ReplyDeleteI can kind of understand him. Why lose your heart more when you think she wants to leave. Maybe the Prince can convince her of reasons to stay, mainly him. Great update!
ReplyDeleteGet back there Prince Mazen! But i know why he have to ran away. He was affraid Marie will denied him if he want more. Isnt it? Or he is affraid he will fall for more... Thank ypu for the update
ReplyDeleteLoved it!!!
ReplyDeleteI think he was grinding and enjoying it all a bit too much....... after that he was proberbly ashamed because no man wants to be a 'two pump champ'.
ReplyDeleteI am not surprised he stopped. she expressed in an earlier chapter that as a strict catholic, you give yourself when you are in love and married. I think the Prince's guilt and shame are due to the fact that he maybe felt he was being selfish and putting himself first. It has only been a few days, and until recently, Marie was very hot and cold.
ReplyDeleteShe's redrawing the lines, he's afraid he'd crossed...
ReplyDeleteNot nice prince
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